不对称的脸

昨晚，发现自己的右脸肿了起来
感觉上，脸歪歪的...
口腔的右侧更是红肿..
好像发酵了的面粉...
压在牙齿上... 还有牙印..
连嘴角上扬都好像万剑刺脸蛋那么痛..
忽然间，好怀念
以下这个笑容..

It's very sad that...

It's very sad that you think you can calm down and talk, but you can't.
It's very sad that you think you can put down yourself, say sorry and feel sorry, it happens but it doesn't work.
It's very sad that you hope for a forgive and a hug, but it doesn't happen.
It's very sad that you think the comedy in TV will cheer you up, it's doesn't.
It's very sad that you think he will come over and tell you how much he love you, but it's doesn't happen.
It's very sad when you wish for a sweet kiss goodbye, but it doesn't happen.
It's very sad when you expected somebody to understand you, won't force you to do things you don't like, but it doesn't happen.
It's very sad that you think tears can wash away the pain in your heart, but it doesn't happen.
It's very sad that you cry the whole night and hope that you can fall asleep, but it doesn't happen.
It's very sad when you wish that they can tell you they care rather than complaining about the situation, but it doesn't happen.
It's very sad when you don't know what to do, lost yourself, hoping to just make yourself drunk and forgot what happened, but it doesn't work.
It's very sad that the phone keep ringing, hoping for somebody to answer, but it won't happen.
It's very sad that dreams are for dreamer, but it won't happen on you.
It's very sad that you need to wash away your sad mood and think the right way for tomorrow, but it doesn't happen.
It's very sad that the one that really stay next to you when you need one doesn't speak and listen.

It's really very sad that..... the only thing you have for tonight is a scar and it hurts you when you hoping him to come back when he walks away, but it doesn't happen.

哀悼。回忆。我和你

我和你... 认识的时间不久.. 但是我喜欢有你在身边的感觉.. 总是不知不觉地有种莫名的快乐..

或许，人对生命是有预感的.. 希望在有限的时间内，尽所能的满足爱自己的人，不要留下遗憾...

很可惜，在面对着事实，人可以变得很脆弱，很无助，很力不从心..

只好让这一切随风而去，把一切最美好的，都留在回忆了... 因为回忆是给自己最好的礼物..

我不能说我曾经很爱你，因为我相信我给你的爱是永无止境的.. 也许，现在要用不一样的方式去爱你了...

你改变了我的世界，我的想法... 谢谢你，让我长大，让我成熟...

有人说:"爱是一种习惯，一种态度"... 谢谢你，很大方的爱着我...

这一晚的泪，是我们的结束，是我们另一个开始...

无论你在哪里，我都深深的祝福你.. 活得平安健康快乐..

最后，我也只能为你哀悼，想告诉你，在我心中有着这么一个你... 我爱过的你...

You are not alone

I am here with you

Though you're far away

I am here to stay

You are not alone

I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart

*Ben, the two of us need look no more

We both found what we were looking for

With a friend to call my own I'll never be alone

And you, my friend, will see

You've got a friend in me*

一通不能接受的电话。。。

头好痛。。心也很痛。。。手在键盘上停了很久，很久。。。泪也在眼角流了很久，很久。。。

这一切，由一通电话开始。。。一把带着重重鼻音的熟音。。“什么？你说多一次。”“什么时候？”“在哪里？”。。。我来不及安慰你，因为我不相信！我不能接受你说“俊翔死了。”

俊翔，是我们的小学同学。我们一起成长，就像家人一样。谁能接受家人的离去？在我眼中，俊翔是一个好人，一个我们的私家司机， 一个永远穿t-shirt的邻家男孩。真正大家熟起来，因该是马六甲之旅。俊翔和他的黑色myvi，很有性格的驾姿，都是他留给我们开心的回忆。还记得，我的生日派队，因为以线条为主体，他还特地call 我说“穿t-shirt能不能？”“也是线条的”。。他就是一个这么细心的男生。

大家的心情都因该和我一样，选择了不要相信这个事实。因为，我们都感觉到俊翔的存在。六年级《自我介绍》里写的“友谊永固”，永远都在。 但是，朋友们我们真的能接受他已经不会和我们开玩笑，这个残酷的事实吗？ 老实说，我没有心理准备去见一个陌生的俊翔，一个不会zat 人的俊翔。

俊翔，没有你的bbq，谁来起火？没有你的火锅，谁来抢鸡翼？没有你的旅行，谁来驾车？没有你的笑话，谁还会笑？？我们会永永远远怀念你，这个真心的朋友。安息吧~