Monday, October 29, 2012

A piece of the long weekend

Well, quite weird to start of a day. A MONDAY. With a blog post entry and a blank mind. After a long weekend (god blessed Malaysia with plenty of public holidays that falls on a Friday this year), we working young adults either got drunk or stunt. However I don't belong to both, sadly.

Let's check how blank was my long weekend. Starting last Thursday. Cousin sister pick me and queen up to celebrate her lovely chicken little (fat version) son birthday. Gotta eat fried chicken wings, nuggets, fries, hot dog etc. Yes the list goes on and it's a kid's birthday and I enjoyed the food for like 30 minutes. After that, milk pick me up for next round. Which is a little passive mode on because I'd been going to karaoke for the past few weeks in October. (1st week in Sarawak working - NA, 2nd week - with SSgroup, 3rd week - KL gals) and here comes the last week 2 person in a room. And I sang for like 2 and a half hours!!!! OMG. I only realized it when I walked out of the room. It's maniac.

Spend 5 hours in MV on Saturday  (corrected by milk) it's a Friday! (you see how blurred I am, can't even keep track of days, not to mentioned time) . Travel fair, settled the ground trip for Bali for milk's birthday. For me, I just a want a weekend. To relax and some quality time with friend and nature. I think it has been sometime for a trip like this. Back to a place that I've been before and feel it differently. The previous re-visiting trip was really a bad one. *mute* Drove back to Sban in a almost fell asleep mode. Bright sunny day, cold air cons, songs in the earphone (Vivaldi, Bach, Mozart, Beethoven playing randomly in this travelling player, darn)...

Saturday early half was quite emotional. Done with a book, Da Mo Yao. OMG. The hero for the drama is totally 10000000% what I imagine from the story!!! I have to watch this drama once it's out!!!! The General Huo is a charm, heart beat speeder!! No doubt I have a t hing for arrogant and overbearing guy. After all the imagination happiness and sadness and tears and laughter, cousin sister drag me out for a family affair foot massage. Watching tvb dramas while the China masseur were too busy talking to each other. How nice if I have a masseur at home, I'm still in my fantasy of the Han Dynasty and still in love with General Huo. lol. 1 hour passed. My future cousin brother in law spend us all in a famous decent restaurant nearby which I'd dine in twice for some special reason. Looking at the same dishes, there's some moment and some dialogues recalled. It was nice to re-look into that situation. Funny yet special one. Yes, he did came into the picture.

Finally Sunday's here. After morning prayer for deceased grandma's birthday. Comes an unexpected lunch. Japanese. Problem solving. Failed story telling. Persuading. and many cups of green tea. I'd never eat that much of Edamame in a meal before. Terrible. I mean food taste better when it's shared than solo right?

Last but not least, Sunday night typical Chinese type of concert cum donation for the Chinese schools. Sifu reserved 3 seats for us and in return I'd to represent a donor for the donors lighting ceremony. Met Queenie and her royalty family. Took a quick snap at the ladies entrance. The bonus for this whole event - keep in touch with old friend. Highlight of the event, Oppa GangNam Style!! Yes this evil song has been playing in the world since it's created by the Koreans and a maniac sang this weekly in the karaoke room with Korean characters. Eh~~~ sexy lady~~~

YooHoo. Almost lunch time. Brain refresh and it reminds me how wonderful the weekend is. Time with family, time with myself and least expected surprise. It all depends on the attitude that you choose you want to be. For me, it's just another decision making process. To be or not to be. End of story.


Monday, October 22, 2012

空瓶

我想,再次听到你的消息,耳边还有这首应景的歌,我惊讶..
因为,我并没有流泪,嘴角是上扬的...
很好,你过得很好...
我也很好...

刚刚决定到岛国去了..
回到蓝蓝的大海..
我需要这片蓝色,清澈的h2o..

因为我是瓶子..

这几年,我装下了,希望,爱,期待,恨,痛,失望..
还有数不尽的眼泪..

够了..
是时候,一点一滴的倒出来..
从新,从零,从空..
再开始...

对于未来,不曾假设,不再安排...
很多事情,根本不在我控制之内..
但是,只有我自己能决定把你放下...
而且,我向前走了...

如果有人问我,我们是否还是朋友?
是,我们是...
如果有人再问我, 会不会参加你的婚礼?
会,我会...

因为你是那个,让瓶子有机会再次 空出她满满的世界,再次接受这世界的人...






Friday, October 19, 2012

留給這世上我最愛的人


电梯里,早餐后,从食堂到部门的几层楼的几秒....

似曾熟悉的旋律,歌词.. 印象里的是把女生......

但是,这把男生唱的如此细腻,沧桑...

“離開這世上我最愛的人 從此不必掛念我  不必嗟怨命運不幸 愛可不是憐憫”

曾国辉的广东歌,不妨一听...

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

这一夜

朋友们都很怀念我的自由期,那没人管的半个月,有谁叫到,我没有不奉陪的...

有了时间,能做的事情好像好多好多......

一个人开始,我买了很多书.... 到了韩国.... 去了公干.... 回了家乡... 这一切, 没有你....

却让我 更清楚,生活很多时候,是要鼓起勇气面对寂寞,珍惜当下...

这一夜,画完了稿,动了动钢琴,剩下的就是把我仅学的字凑在一块了....

有多久了,就连用什么字去形容自己的感受,都很陌生了...

那个每晚写日记,开心入眠,期待明天的女生,我想我放弃了...

成长的代价不小,天真浪漫,梦幻爱情,都好像很遥远了....

徘徊于梦想与现实之间,我只能在这灰色地带继续徘徊...

即使我有选择的权利,没有他们的成全,到最后我们都接受命运的安排...

还记得,那晚我的灵魂身躯情绪全崩溃... 日记里写了一个字“殉”..

所有的爱恨情仇,七情六欲,如云烟般消失...

这一夜,听着力宏的歌... 这个陪着我走过3段恋情的男人唱着的是我的回忆....

或许你们感觉到了我的改变,放心,我只有变得更好,更爱自己....

我还有你们,你会做我的午餐伴,你会和我逛书展,你会约我出国,你会看我睡觉,你会陪我疯狂,你会等我看戏.....

剩下的就是一个会冲动带我走的你.... 这次我不会再犹豫....

当自由变成奢侈品,时间被珍惜,感情应该是我最大的战利品...